where ever you go, there you are

In a little over 24 hours I will find myself far from my home and family nestled in the Sangre de Cristo mountains in Santa Fe. My mind keeps screaming that I should cancel the trip and just stay here and be content. My spirit however is having none of it. I HAVE to go. I really do not want to go, but I have to go.

I'm not sure why I feel this way or what I am expecting out of this experience. I am going though and I am staying for the entire 33 days as planned. The rest I have put in God's hands. Man though when the waves of fear come up I just want to run...but then I realize that there is no where to run to. Besides where ever you go, there you are.

I am praying that God sends a fleet of angels to help my family while I am away. My husband (who is also a hairdresser) and my sister (who is an esthetician and our business partner) are so wonderful to insist that I take this time. We are so short staffed at the salon as it is.They both will have to take on more of a workload and deal with more of the stress yet neither one of them has a single complaint. In fact they are joyous that I have the opportunity to go away like this.

I have invited all to join in on my journey...to sit and meditate daily, to eat a vegitarian diet ( no caffeine) and to rest regularly. I hope that cumulatively we can cause a shift in our beingness and create a better world for ourselves and for those that we cross paths with. Even if it is just in our little corner.

In the meantime I will strive daily to not listen to the complaints, concerns and fears that have stopped me in the past. I know I have to accomplish my list of reasons why I am going on this journey. The lump in my throat is so hard to swallow, but it cannot stop me from putting one foot in front of the other until I reach Santa Fe.

So in my next post I will already be in the experience of my Zen get away. It is my prayer that I manage this journey with grace, that faith carry me through, and that I find something fabulously glittery as a memento of my trip.

love to you all,
lotus girl