all that glitters

so i just got back from an appointment with my oncologist...where I had to own up to stopping
the tamoxifen. All in all it went really well. She is ok with me being off of the drug, (makes me wonder then why I was ever even ON the drug to begin with??), but I have to loose the extra weight. She said that the weight gain could have been from the drug and/or the forced menopause that I underwent with the removal of my uterus and ovaries.
Let me tell you having a courtship with Cancer is brutal.

As of today though I feel like I have rounded the corner and taken the first steps to ending this co-dependent relationship with Cancer....
I am free of that nasty little pill. Soon my hair should stop falling out and I feel SUPER motivated to get my ass moving again.

7 days left before I take off for my Zen-Retreat! My camping gear is all over the dining table...as I check off the necessary items one by one I think "this has not really hit me yet".

I had to break down and buy some nail polish remover and pack it as well as two light colors, cotton and a nail file...I just can't do the bare nail thing. I am even going to offer the Monks manicures for their pleasure.
I am also not wearing or taking any jewelry on this trip...that is for sure a first. I have been trying to wind down on all the glitter and sparkle just so I don't go into shock at the bare feeling that I am anticipating.
You know all in all I have to ask myself what is so wrong with the glitter and sparkle? I love the jingle sound of a 14k charm bracelet...and rings are my things....then I have to remind myself that I was the one that was soooo curious to try life from a different perspective.
I am betting though that when all is said and done I break down and shop my way back to the bling in Santa Fe.

I can already see the sparkle and I love turquoise.

Some things may be better off left UN-changed!

Peace, love and glitter.