Right back into the swing of things....

Hi!
I cannot believe that I have not written in weeks. I have been back home for a month now and it is rolling right on by me. I am still sitting, but hardly at all. Something I intend on changing immediately.
I am amazed at how fast we live our lives. I am having a very difficult time keeping up with all of my commitments.
I have stopped:
exercising
taking vitamins
journaling
juicing
resting
walking
and almost sitting
all in the last two to four weeks.

I have been overwhelmed and sucked in by the demands of my life...
managing :
all my appointments
the store
the finances
the offices
employees
my relationship (barely)
the house

How do we as women do it all?
I have to STOP and re-group and re-arrange some things here.

I keep falling into the throes of my mind.

I have however managed to:
at least sit, some of the time
keep my mouth shut more often
remain present a lot more
go for a few long walks with HH
LOVE hairdressing again and turn out some a#* kicking hair as of late
glitter and sparkle
journal a bit
love my obstacles more
run to a few of my aversions
withstand a personal heartbreak, regarding my daughter, gracefully

anyway, my point is that it hasn't been all failures and mishaps since returning home. I still get a tremendous payback daily from my experience at Upaya. It keeps unfolding.

I hooked up with my Seattle roommate for a dinner and Zen gab fest...heaven I tell you, to see her again was a slice of pure heaven.
Plus, another one of my Upaya Buddha fairies is moving to Seattle and will be rooming with my sister for a while. I am so excited to see her and welcome her to Seattle.

So, here I am right back into the swing of things. I do however know better and wake up every day with a grateful heart and a determined will to live fully and laugh much. I see the beauty in life a lot more. I miss Upaya SOOOO MUCH, ( can you believe it?) and I look foward to returning soon one day and bringing my little sis, and HH too!

I promise I will write more often. I have loved re-reading my blog...it keeps things alive for me and I hope it makes a difference for you.

Peace, love and glitter,
lotus girl

Home Sweet Home

I have been home now for a couple of weeks...gosh that cannot be right. I returned a different human being, for the better I might add. It will be hard to try and capture what happened to me at the magical land of Upaya filled with all the Buddah-fairies. I can say that I am much more aware of life and that I am much more ok in my life than before.
When I first got home things seemed so loud.
I am still sitting although not as often and of course not in the luxury of Upaya's zendo....but I am still dropping in on myself....

There is much more that I plan to write but for now I just wanted to check in and let you know that I am working my way back in to the mainstream of things.
Oh yeah...I bought a pair of Birkenstocks....in honor of my Zen-makeover. In my defense they are silver with three rhinestone buckles on each one....
Shine baby shine.....in so many new ways.
I bow to you in love,
lotus girl